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So what do you have to do to find happiness?

2010-04-21T20:37:00.000-07:00

Are we wired up to be cheerful, or are some of us destined to languish in abject misery? Dorothy Wade reports on the new science of feeling good

Behind the neoclassical facade of the Royal Institution, in London's Mayfair, the latest in a 200-year series of lectures was taking place in a hushed amphitheatre this summer. Standing on the shoulders of scientific giants such as Faraday and Dewar were three academics debating "Happiness, the science behind your smile".

Purists might imagine the founding geniuses of the Royal Institution turning in their graves. What does science have to tell us about such a frivolous subject? And how do you define happiness, let alone study it? But happiness has finally burst out of the academic closet. Several weighty volumes on the subject have been published this year. And on the same night as the RI event, the economist Lord Layard and the psychiatrist Dr Raj Persaud were debating the Politics of Happiness at the London School of Economics just a mile away.

Perversely, happiness has a negative image in our culture. Influenced by a sceptical European philosophical outlook, we think of happiness as a trivial pursuit for the Oprah generation, a Shangri-La perpetuated by self-help gurus. Isn't it selfish to try to increase our happiness, while much of the world faces suffering and premature death?

Great writers from Freud — "the intention that man should be happy is not included in the plan of Creation" — to Philip Larkin — "man hands on misery to man" — have painted happiness as an elusive butterfly. But ordinary people believe they are happier than average (an obvious impossibility) and that they'll be even happier in 10 years' time. If true, it would be good news because research shows that happier people are healthier, more successful, harder-working, caring and more socially engaged. Misery makes people self-obsessed and inactive.

These are the conclusions of a burgeoning happiness industry that has published 3,000 papers, set up a Journal of Happiness Studies and created a World Database of Happiness in the last few years.

Can scientists tell us what happiness is?

Economists accept that if people describe themselves as happy, then they are happy. However, psychologists differentiate between levels of happiness. The most immediate type involves a feeling; pleasure or joy. But sometimes happiness is a judgment that life is satisfying, and does not imply an emotional state.

Public surveys measure what makes us happy. Marriage does, pets do, but children don't seem to (despite what we think). Youth and old age are the happiest times. Money does not add much to happiness; in Britain, incomes have trebled since 1950, but happiness has not increased at all. The happiness of lottery winners returns to former levels within a year. People disabled in an accident are likely to become almost as happy again. For happiness levels are probably genetic: identical twins are usually equally bubbly or grumpy.

One thing makes a striking difference. When two American psychologists studied hundreds of students and focused on the top 10% "very happy" people, they found they spent the least time alone and the most time socialising. Psychologists know that increasing the number of social contacts a miserable person has is the best way of cheering them up. When Jean-Paul Sartre wrote "hell is other people", the arch-pessimist of existentialist angst was wrong.

America has pursued the chimera of happiness vigorously, not least through the insatiable consumption of self-help literature such as Climb Your Stairway to Heaven: 9 Tips for Daily Happiness! So it is no surprise that it's an American who is making happiness a subject of scientific study. At first glance, Martin Seligman's bestselling book Authentic Happiness, with its sunshine-yellow title on a sky-blue cover, blends with other manuals on the pop-psychology shelves. But America's latest guru of feeling good is not a stage hypnotist, an evangelical preacher or even a business visionary. Seligman is an eminent professor of psychology with a string of degrees. One of the chief architects of the prevailing model of depression, his work has helped to found modern "cognitive" therapies.

The man who's trying to do for happiness what Newton did for gravity has found it a scarce commodity in life. Seligman describes himself as a "walking nimbus cloud" who spent 50 years "enduring mostly wet weather in my soul". Feeling out of place as a chubby 13-year-old Jewish kid at a wealthy college, he hit on the role of therapist as a route to the hearts of unattainable girls. "What a brilliant stroke! I'll bet no other guy ever listened to them ruminate about their insecurities, nightmares and bleakest fantasies."

As a psychology graduate working in animal- behaviour labs, Seligman discovered "learned helplessness" and became a big name. Dogs who experience electric shocks that they cannot avoid by their actions simply give up trying. They will passively endure later shocks that they could easily escape. Seligman went on to apply this to humans, with "learned helplessness" as a model for depression. People who feel battered by unsolvable problems learn to be helpless; they become passive, slower to learn, anxious and sad. This idea revolutionised behavioural psychology and therapy by suggesting the need to challenge depressed people's beliefs and thought patterns, not just their behaviour.

Now Seligman is famous again, this time for creating the field of positive psychology. In 1997 the professor was seeking a theme for his presidency of the American Psychological Association. The idea came while gardening with his daughter Nikki. She was throwing weeds around and he was shouting. She reminded him that she used to be a whiner but had stopped on her fifth birthday. "And if I can stop whining, you can stop being a grouch."

Seligman describes this as an "epiphany". He vowed to change his own outlook, but more importantly recognised a strength — social intelligence — in his daughter that could be nurtured to help her withstand the vicissitudes of life. Looking back on "learned helplessness", he reflected that one in three subjects — rats, dogs or people — never became "helpless", no matter how many shocks or problems beset them.
"What is it about some people that imparts buffering strength, making them invulnerable to helplessness?" Seligman asked himself — and now he's made it his mission to find out.

Since its origins in a Leipzig laboratory 130 years ago, psychology has had little to say about goodness and contentment. Mostly psychologists have concerned themselves with weakness and misery. There are libraries full of theories about why we get sad, worried, and angry. It hasn't been respectable science to study what happens when lives go well. Positive experiences, such as joy, kindness, altruism and heroism, have mainly been ignored. For every 100 psychology papers dealing with anxiety or depression, only one concerns a positive trait.

A few pioneers in experimental psychology bucked the trend. Professor Alice Isen of Cornell University and colleagues have demonstrated how positive emotions make people think faster and more creatively. Showing how easy it is to give people an intellectual boost, Isen divided doctors making a tricky diagnosis into three groups: one received candy, one read humanistic statements about medicine, one was a control group. The doctors who had candy displayed the most creative thinking and worked more efficiently.

Inspired by Isen and others, Seligman got stuck in. He wanted to revolutionise psychology, but his weapon would be tough science. Clinical psychology was the science of how to get from minus five to zero. This would be the science of getting from zero to plus five. Seligman wanted experiments, he wanted statistics, he wanted proof.

He raised millions of dollars of research money and funded 50 research groups involving 150 scientists across the world. Four positive psychology centres opened, decorated in cheerful colours and furnished with sofas and baby-sitters. There were get-togethers on Mexican beaches where psychologists would snorkel and eat fajitas, then form "pods" to discuss subjects such as wonder and awe. A thousand therapists were coached in the new science.

Their holy grail is the classification of strengths and virtues. After a solemn consultation of great works such as the samurai code, the Bhagavad-Gita and the writings of Confucius, Aristotle and Aquinas, Seligman's happiness scouts discovered six core virtues recognised in all cultures: wisdom, courage, humanity, justice, temperance and transcendence. They have subdivided these into 24 strengths, including humour and honesty.

But critics are demanding answers to big questions. What is the point of defining levels of happiness and classifying the virtues? Aren't these concepts vague and impossible to pin down? Can you justify spending funds to research positive states when there are problems such as famine, flood and epidemic depression to be solved?
Seligman knows his work can be belittled alongside trite notions such as "the power of positive thinking". His plan to stop the new science floating "on the waves of self- improvement fashions" is to make sure it is anchored to positive philosophy above, and to positive biology below. And this takes us back to our evolutionary past.

Homo sapiens evolved during the Pleistocene era (1.8 m to 10,000 years ago), a time of hardship and turmoil. It was the Ice Age, and our ancestors endured long freezes as glaciers formed, then ferocious floods as the ice masses melted. We shared the planet with terrifying creatures such as mammoths, elephant-sized ground sloths and sabre-toothed cats.

But by the end of the Pleistocene, all these animals were extinct. Humans, on the other hand, had evolved large brains and used their intelligence to make fire and sophisticated tools, to develop talk and social rituals.

Survival in a time of adversity forged our brains into a persistent mould. Professor Seligman says: "Because our brain evolved during a time of ice, flood and famine, we have a catastrophic brain. The way the brain works is looking for what's wrong. The problem is, that worked in the Pleistocene era. It favoured you, but it doesn't work in the modern world."

Although most people rate themselves as happy, there is a wealth of evidence to show that negative thinking is deeply ingrained in the human psyche. Experiments show that we remember failures more vividly than successes. We dwell on what went badly, not what went well. When life runs smoothly, we're on autopilot — we're only in a state of true consciousness when we notice the stone in our shoe.

Of the six universal emotions, four — anger, fear, disgust and sadness — are negative and only one, joy, is positive. (The sixth, surprise, is neutral.) According to the psychologist Daniel Nettle, author of Happiness, and one of the Royal Institution lecturers, the negative emotions each tell us "something bad has happened" and suggest a different course of action. Fear tells us danger is near, so run away. Anger prompts us to deter aggressors. Sadness warns us to be cautious and save energy, while disgust urges us to avoid contamination.

Joy, according to Nettle, simply tells us, "something good has happened, don't change anything". The evolutionary role of pleasure was to encourage activity that was good for survival, such as eating and having sex. But unlike negative emotions, which are often persistent, joy tends to be short-lived. We soon get sick of cream cakes or blasé about our pay rise.

What is it about the structure of the brain that underlies our bias towards negative thinking? And is there a biology of joy? At Iowa University, neuroscientists studied what happens when people are shown pleasant and unpleasant pictures. When subjects see landscapes or dolphins playing, part of the frontal lobe of the brain becomes active. But when they are shown unpleasant images — a bird covered in oil, or a dead soldier with part of his face missing — the response comes from more primitive parts of the brain.

The ability to feel negative emotions derives from an ancient danger-recognition system formed early in the brain's evolution. The pre-frontal cortex, which registers happiness, is the part used for higher thinking, an area that evolved later in human history.

Professor Richard Davidson at the University of Wisconsin has scanned brains in different emotional states. When he wired up a Buddhist monk entering a state of bliss through meditation, he found electrical activity shooting up the frontal lobe of the monk's brain on the left side. Observing toddlers at play, he picked some who were exuberant and uninhibited, behaviour linked to higher levels of positive emotion, and others who were quiet and shy. Tested later, the inhibited toddlers showed greater activity on the brain's right side; activation of the lively toddlers' brains was on the left. Happiness and sadness are lopsided.

Modern humans, stuck with an ancient brain, are like rats on a wheel. We can't stop running, because we're always looking over our shoulders and comparing our achievements with our neighbours'. At 20, we think we'd be happy with a house and a car. But if we get them, we start dreaming of a second home in Italy and a turbo-charged four-wheel-drive.

This is called the "hedonic treadmill" by happiness scholars. It causes us to rapidly and inevitably adapt to good things by taking them for granted. The more possessions and accomplishments we have, the more we need to boost our level of happiness. It makes sense that the brain of a species that has dominated others would evolve to strive to be best.

Our difficulty, according to Daniel Nettle, is that the brain systems for liking and wanting are separate. Wanting involves two ancient regions — the amygdala and the nucleus accumbens — that communicate using the chemical dopamine to form the brain's reward system. They are involved in anticipating the pleasure of eating and in addiction to drugs. A rat will press a bar repeatedly, ignoring sexually available partners, to receive electrical stimulation of the "wanting" parts of the brain. But having received brain stimulation, the rat eats more but shows no sign of enjoying the food it craved. In humans, a drug like nicotine produces much craving but little pleasure.

At the Royal Institution, Nettle explained how brain chemistry foils our pursuit of happiness in the modern world: "The things that you desire are not the things that you end up liking. The mechanisms of desire are insatiable. There are things that we really like and tire of less quickly — having good friends, the beauty of the natural world, spirituality. But our economic system plays into the psychology of wanting, and the psychology of liking gets drowned out."

Liking involves different brain chemicals from wanting. Real pleasure is associated with opioids. They are released in the rat brain by sweet tastes. When they are blocked in humans, food tastes less delicious. They also dampen down pain so that pleasure is unadulterated.

Happiness is neither desire nor pleasure alone. It involves a third chemical pathway. Serotonin constantly shifts the balance between negative and positive emotions. It can reduce worry, fear, panic and sleeplessness and increase sociability, co-operation, and happy feelings. Drugs based
on serotonin, such as ecstasy, produce a relaxed sense of wellbeing rather than the dopamine pattern of euphoria and craving.

In essence, what the biology lesson tells us is that negative emotions are fundamental to the human condition, and it's no wonder they are difficult to eradicate. At the same time, by a trick of nature, our brains are designed to crave but never really achieve lasting happiness.

Psychologists such as Seligman are convinced you can train yourself to be happier. His teams are developing new positive interventions (treatments) to counteract the brain's nagging insistence on seeking out bad news. The treatments work by boosting positive emotion about the past, by teaching people to savour the present, and by increasing the amount of engagement and meaning in their lives.

Since the days of Freud, the emphasis in consulting rooms has been on talk about negative effects of the past and how they damage people in the present. Seligman names this approach "victimology" and says research shows it to be worthless: "It is difficult to find even small effects of childhood events on adult personality, and there is no evidence at all of large effects."

The tragic legacy of Freud is that many are "unduly embittered about their past, and unduly passive about their future", says Seligman. His colleague Aaron Beck developed cognitive therapy after becoming disillusioned with his Freudian training in the 1950s. Beck found that as depressed patients talked "cathartically" about past wounds and losses, some people began to unravel. Occasionally this led to suicide attempts, some of which were fatal. There was very little evidence that psychoanalysis worked.

Cognitive therapy places less emphasis on the past. It works by challenging a person's thinking about the present and setting goals for the future. Another newcomer, brief solution-focused therapy, discourages talk about "problems" and helps clients identify strengths and resources to make positive changes in their lives.

The focus of most psychotherapy is on decreasing negative emotion. The aim of Seligman's therapy is to increase positive emotion (positive and negative emotions are not polar opposites and can co-exist: women have more of both than men). From the time of Buddha to the self-improvement industry of today, more than 100 "interventions" have been tried in the attempt to build happiness. Forty of these are being tested in randomised placebo-controlled trials by Seligman and his colleagues.

In one internet study, two interventions increased happiness and decreased depressive symptoms for at least six months. One exercise involves writing down three things that went well and why, every day for a week. The other is about identifying your signature strengths and using one of them in a new and different way every day for a week. A third technique involves writing a long letter to someone you're grateful to but have never properly thanked, and visiting them to read it out in person.

Seligman and his graduate students weep tears of joy when they do this exercise, but most Brits would probably rather be miserable than do it. So it's a relief to hear that it doesn't work particularly well. It has strong, but only brief, effects.
Seligman speculates that doing more exercises for longer would bring greater benefits. Hundreds of thousands of people have registered with his website www.reflectivehappiness.com — where, for $10 a month, they are given a happiness programme including instruction in a package of positive exercises.

Sylvia Perkins, a 73-year-old retired librarian from south Michigan tried the "Savour a Beautiful Day" task. Her husband died of lung cancer four years ago, and after a recent mild stroke she moved into an assisted living community. "The move has been very difficult for me and I've been trying to fight off the feeling that I've just come here to die. When I heard about this exercise, I decided to give it a try, because it seemed like a hopeful thing to do."

She spent her "beautiful" day going through photos and mementoes and making scrapbooks for each of her children. She also wrote them letters about her most precious memories of them and stuck them in the albums. "This exercise helped me feel reconnected to my children. I have felt more hopeful about my situation. I realise that my health prognosis is really quite good and I am confident that I will have many more years to share with my family."

Positive psychology has a schmaltzy American feel that might not translate well into a British setting. Dr Nick Baylis of Cambridge University is working with colleagues to "tweak" positive psychology for "British ears". He calls his research the "study of wellbeing" rather than the science of happiness. As a forensic psychologist, he worked with young offenders at Feltham and decided that studying what went wrong in damaged lives was not productive. "I had looked at broken lives. Now I wanted to look at lives that go well."

He founded the charity Trailblazers to give young offenders positive role models. In his Young Lives research project, he interviewed hundreds of accomplished people from Kate Adie to Jamie Oliver about their strategies for making the most of life. Their advice and ideas can be found in www.YoungLivesUK.com and in the book Wonderful Lives.

When Baylis went to Cambridge as Britain's first lecturer in positive psychology, he was treated as a "neo-Nazi", he says. The study of happiness was a "taboo subject". He sent an e-mail to colleagues who might have an interest in wellbeing, and received a reply from only one, Professor Felicia Huppert. She studies the secrets of a happy, productive old age, and theirs is now a fruitful collaboration. The British approach to wellbeing also emphasises good physical health and diet, proper sleep, relaxation and exercise, and spending time in the natural environment.

Given its famously bad health and diet, Glasgow is a city in need of positive medicine. It's become a live laboratory for the new science. Last month, Professor Seligman paid his second visit to Glasgow's Centre for Confidence and Wellbeing, to spread the happiness gospel to Scottish teachers, coaches and businessmen as part of the Vanguard programme, backed by the Scottish Executive. The sceptical Scots seem to welcome Seligman's empirical approach.

Dr Carol Craig, who runs the centre, is passionate about curing Scotland's epidemic of pessimism and low self-esteem. She points to many indicators of malaise: the Scottish suicide rate is double the English one, and antidepressant prescribing is 40% higher. A new UN report says that Scotland is the most violent country in the developed world. Scottish children are among the least confident anywhere, according to the World Health Organization.

Craig believes that the dark, forbidding nature of Calvinist religion is responsible for the dour Scottish psyche. "We're a culture that encourages feelings of lack of self-worth. We're a culture that goes out of its way to make sure people don't feel good about themselves," says Craig.

From a young age, Scots are taught humility, modesty and conformity. Scottish humour often pokes fun at those who "get above their station". Craig speculates that the high rate of emigration from Scotland has denuded the country of optimists and left too many pessimists behind. Could any of this be linked to the fact that men in one part of Glasgow, Shettleston, have a life expectancy of 64? (Scottish men, on average, live to 73.) And that west Scotland is the unhealthiest region in Europe, with high rates of heart disease, cancer and strokes? Has anyone found a causal link between happiness and health?

Nuns may hold the answer. Nuns make a great natural experiment, because they lead the same routine lives with similar diets and activities. None have married or had children. Yet there is huge variation in their health and longevity. In 1932, 180 novices in Milwaukee wrote short sketches of their lives. One wrote: "God started my life off well by bestowing upon me grace of inestimable value. The past year has been a very happy one." She lived to 98 in wonderful health.

Another wrote a joyless and neutral sketch, ending: "With God's grace, I intend to do my best for our Order." She died after a stroke at the age of 59. Researchers who quantified positive feeling in all 180 sketches discovered that nearly all (90%) of the happiest quarter were still alive at 85. But of the least cheerful quarter, only a third survived to that age.

Another piece of the jigsaw fitted this year when a team from University College London tested the happiness levels of 216 middle-aged civil servants in a study of risk factors for coronary heart disease. People who had the most happy moments per day had the lowest rates of cortisol, a hormone that can be harmful if produced excessively, and of the chemical plasma fibrinogen, a predictor of heart disease. The happiest men (but not women) also had the lowest heart rates.

Angela Clow, professor of psychophysiology at Westminster University, is a world authority on the biochemistry of stress. "There is clear evidence that stress makes you susceptible to illness, but I wanted to turn this around and discover how happiness makes you healthier. There's not a lot of happiness research in the UK, because if you do it, people think you're trivial," says Clow.

In one experiment, she and colleagues blindfolded participants and wafted smells of chocolate, water and rotten meat under their noses. Then they measured levels of secretory IgA, an antibody that protects the body against invading cells, in their saliva. Chocolate sent the antibody levels soaring up; rotten meat brought them down. Clow found that pleasant music also boosted the immune system, as did stimulating the left side of the brain with magnetism.

Comparing patients in a day-surgery waiting room with music and art on the walls against one with no music and plain white walls, Clow found that the art and music patients had lower heart-rates, blood pressure and cortisol, and needed less sedation before their surgery.

"But why should happiness have such an effect on the immune system?" asks Clow. She speculates that there is an evolutionary mechanism. Our happiest ancestors were bold creatures who socialised and ventured out to explore. This brought them into contact with infection, so they needed higher levels of antibodies in a stronger immune system.

But repeated stress weakens us. The stress response temporarily increases the level of cortisol, a vital hormone that regulates the whole immune system. This is a healthy response, designed to produce fight or flight only in cases of real danger. Unfortunately, the daily hassles of modern life induce repeated stress in some of us, subjecting our bodies to frequent pulses of cortisol. This unbalances the immune system and makes us ill.

Laughter and humour are also being studied for their effects on health. Research methods include using a tickle machine, and probing with electrodes to find the funny parts of the brain. Laughter, like stress, increases blood pressure and heart rate and changes breathing. But unlike stress, it reduces levels of chemicals circulating in the body. In one study, people's cortisol and adrenaline were reduced after watching a favourite comedy video for 60 minutes.

It's difficult to resist the logic of the happiness doctors. Stay in your Eeyore-ish bubble of existentialist angst and have a life that's short, sickly, friendless and self-obsessed. Or find a way to get happy, and long life, good health, job satisfaction and social success will be yours. You'd better start writing that gratitude letter now.

episode #12994

2010-04-12T23:00:00.000-07:00

indomie tak pernah ingkar janji

first post on 2010

2010-02-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

it's still just two months onto 2010, yet i have broken my career year-resolution.

perhaps indeed it's time to move on...

Yé Ké Yé Ké - Mory Kante

2009-06-08T18:49:00.000-07:00

Bi sounkouroun lou la donkégna ah ah
Bi kamberen lou la donkegna ah ah
I madji I ma yélé
I kanan n'bila nara ro
N'bo n'bolo bila
Kanfalani yana sara le ila
Gnin kisse gbela serra le ils
Yékéké nimo yé ké yé ké
Ké woyé boli lalé
N'na doni kassi kan
Woyé boli lalé
Eh eh
Nyé n'ta soron akono mi ma ta I yonfé
Wo dén té soron lonkéléna
Sini Mory la diyandé
Timba bara wouloukounta
Souba ma kata I yala
Ah sara lila
Yékéké nimo yé ké yé ké
Djely mousso ni kédjou to wara bo
M'ba mofila téma yan féou

Mobile Music Library

2009-02-02T07:19:00.001-08:00

iPod
Originally uploaded by aip_

So portable, so easy to use.. Love it..

Wondering apa perlu nabung buat ambil 1 lagi..

Tubelover CD Buffer 6SN7

2009-01-21T23:58:00.001-08:00

Tubelover CD Buffer 6SN7
Originally uploaded by Tubelover

pengen bikin sendiri...

Indo-StarTrek Nonton Bareng

2009-01-14T04:37:00.000-08:00

Ikut Blind-test Amplifier @SAS

2009-01-13T18:31:00.001-08:00

Kembar: LM3876-Premium Alex (Kiri) dan LM3876 Aip (Kanan)
Originally uploaded by GOA2008

dan kalah... so many things to learn :)

PreAmp Tube 6111 SRPP

2009-01-11T18:37:00.001-08:00

PreAmp Tube 6111 SRPP
Originally uploaded by unoselecta

700rb...

nabung ah...

South Jakarta Early Morning

2009-01-05T17:51:00.001-08:00

South Jakarta Early Morning
Originally uploaded by aip_

Kemarin berangkat dari rumah jam 6:30, sampai kantor jam 7:20.

Hari ini berangkat jam 6:05, sampai kantor jam 6:40.

Kepagian.

WMD

2008-12-14T20:32:00.001-08:00

WMD
Originally uploaded by aip_

The man who threw the WMD shout to Bush: "This is your goodbye gift" and on the second shot said "This is for all the widows, orphans and men killed in Iraq"...

Beauty...

Olivia_06

2008-11-27T19:44:00.001-08:00

Olivia_06
Originally uploaded by 5000km

Nice songs, nice singer... Too bad I can't afford her CDs for now

episode #12491

2008-11-26T00:43:00.000-08:00

coklat hari ini enak...

SCANBOOT.ASM

2008-10-29T23:54:00.000-07:00


;--------------------------------------------------------
; Program Name : SCANBOOT.ASM (SCAN BOOT Viruses)
; Porgram Type : ANTI VIRUS
; Penulis      : Kutu Busuk
;                ZeroBit Tech. Research & Development.
; Sourcer      : Editor TP 5.5
; Compiler     : TASM 2.0 + TLINK 2.0
; Program Code : I#05.930326.930423.07.$03
;--------------------------------------------------------

ESCAPE  equ  27
JmlVir  equ  15
JmlID   equ   3
OneRec  equ  11

Code  Segment
      Assume CS:Code,DS:Code
      Org 100h

Begin:
      Jmp Start

DUMMY     db 13,'** SCANBOOT.ASM - (C)93xxxx, ZeroBit **',10,1Ah

JUNK      db 13,'ÚÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄ¿',13,10
          db    '³ Ada perubahan tidak sah... ³Ü',13,10
          db    'ÀÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÙÛ',7,13,10,'$'
          db    '  ßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßßß',7,13,10,'$'

COPYRIGHT db 13,'** SCANBOOT R1.0 - (C)1993, ZeroBit TR&D **',10
          db 13,'Masukkan disk di drive a: dan tekan tombol...$'
BATAL     db 13,'Dibatalkan...'        ,13,10,'$'
BACADISK  db 13,'Membaca disk...'      ,13,10,'$'
ERROR     db 13,'Gagal akses...'       ,13,10,'$'
NOVIR     db 13,'Virus tak ketemu...'  ,13,10,'$'
ADAVIR    db 13,'Disk kena virus '  ,13,10,'$'

Ctr       db 0
Drive     db ?

Vir   db 000, 233,172,000, 'Michael'
      db 000, 235,078,144, 'DenZuko'
      db 000, 235,041,144, 'Ohio   '
      db 103, 192,205,019, 'Hacker2'
      db 043, 250,250,008, 'Hacker '
      db 000, 233,013,001, 'H&Dee  '
      db 000, 235,064,000, 'Sapta  '
      db 005, 233,153,000, 'Stoned '
      db 003, 051,192,142, 'Mystic2'
      db 000, 233,170,000, 'VPV1   '
      db 000, 235,031,144, 'Joshi  '
      db 043, 250,051,192, 'Robert '
      db 043, 250,250,140, 'Voodoo '
      db 043, 250,250,250, 'STMIK  '
      db 001, 233,074,001, 'Brain  '

      ;--ofs---virus id-----name---
      ;                          1    >  panjang 1 record
      ;    1    2   3   4   5678901   >  adalah 11 byte

Start:
      mov ax,ds
      mov es,ax

      lea dx,COPYRIGHT                           ; cetak copyright
      call cetak                                 ; dan tanya drive...

      xor ax,ax                                  ; baca keyboard
      int 16h

      cmp al,ESCAPE                              ; esc ?
      jne short noesc                            ; bukan ! lompat ke NOESC

      lea dx,BATAL                               ; ya ! esc !
      call cetak                                 ; cetak "batal"

      jmp quit                                   ; dan keluar...

noesc:

      mov ah,19h
      int 21h
      mov drive,al                               ; ambil nama drive !

      lea dx,BACADISK                            ; cetak "baca disk"
      call cetak

      xor ax,ax                                  ; reset disk drive
      int 13h

      mov drive,0  ; ** HANYA UNTUK TEST DRV A:. BISA DIBUANG **

      mov cx,3                                   ; baca 3 kali jika ada error
lagi:
      push cx
      mov ax,0201h
      mov cx,0001h
      mov dl,drive
      mov dh,0000h
      mov bx,offset Buff                         ; baca boot sektor
      int 13h
      pop cx
      jnc okay                                   ; ada error ?
      loop lagi                                  ; ya ! baca lagi !

      lea dx,ERROR                               ; cetak "error"
      call cetak

      jmp quit                                   ; keluar

okay:
                                                 ; cari virus data di Buff
      mov si,offset Vir
      sub si,OneRec
      mov Ctr,0
virl:
      inc Ctr
      add si,OneRec
      mov di,offset Buff
      add di,[si]
      inc si

      mov cx,JmlID
      repe cmpsb
      je kena

      cmp Ctr,JmlVir
      je absen                                   ; tidak sama ? tidak ada virus
      jmp virl

kena:
      lea dx,ADAVIR                              ; cetak "ada virus"
      call cetak

      mov dx,si                                  ; cetak "nama virus"
      inc dx
      mov di,dx
      add di,8
      mov byte ptr [di],'$'
      call cetak

      jmp short quit                             ; keluar

absen:
      lea dx,NOVIR                               ; cetak "takada virus"
      call cetak

quit:
      int 20h

cetak proc near
      push ax
        mov ah,9
        int 21h
      pop ax
      ret
cetak endp

Buff  db 0

Code  EndS
      End Begin

SLALOM R1.0

2008-10-29T22:18:00.000-07:00


(* --------------------------------------------------- *)
(*   Program Name     :  SLALOM R1.0                   *)
(*   Program Type     :  Game (And Demo too...)        *)
(*   Programmer       :  Kutu Busuk                    *)
(*                       ZeroBit Tech. Research & Dev. *)
(*   Compiler         :  Turbo Pascal 5.50             *)
(*   Program Code     :  #M04.93E02.93E04.16.$05.****  *)
(*   Hardware Config. :  AT/286-16MHz, CGA             *)
(* --------------------------------------------------- *)

{$M 65520,0,0,R-}

Program Slalom;

Uses Dos, Crt;

Const
  Passed   : Boolean = False;
  Noise    : Boolean = True;
  HighScr  : Word    = 0;
  RgArrow  =  77;          { Scan Code }
  LfArrow  =  75;
  UpArrow  =  72;
  DnArrow  =  80;
  F1       =  59;
  Esc      =   1;
  Width    =  57;          { Lebar Area }
  Road     =  12;          { Lebar Jalan }
  MaxDly   = 100;
  MinDly   =  15;
  StepDly  =   5;          { Pakemnya Rem }

Var
  Int1Ch   : Pointer;
  Dly,
  Pos,
  XPos,
  Tree,
  Inp,
  Scan     : Byte;
  Quit,
  RgArrP,
  LfArrP,
  UpArrP,
  DnArrP,
  F1P,
  EscP,
  Press    : Boolean;
  Dummy    : Char;
  H,
  M,
  S,
  SD,
  Score    : Word;
  Start,
  Stop     : Real;

Procedure KeyBoardHandler; Interrupt;
Begin
  Inp   := Port[$60];
  Scan  := Inp AND $7F;
  Press := Inp < $80;
  Case Scan of
    RgArrow : RgArrP   := Press;
    LfArrow : LfArrP   := Press;
    UpArrow : UpArrP   := Press;
    DnArrow : DnArrP   := Press;
    F1      : F1P      := Press;
    Esc     : EscP     := Press;
  End;
  While KeyPressed do Dummy := ReadKey;
  If EscP then Quit := True;
    If F1P then
      Begin
        NoSound;
        Noise := NOT Noise;
      End;
End;

Procedure Init;
Begin
  DirectVideo := False;
  CheckBreak := False;
  GetIntVec($1C,Int1Ch);
  SetIntVec($1C,@KeyBoardHandler);
  If Mem[0:$449] <> CO80 then TextMode(CO80);
  TextAttr := $1F;
  ClrScr;
  InLine($b4/1/           { mov ah,1    ; kursor hilang }
         $b9/32/32/       { mov cx,2020h }
         $cd/$10);        { int 10h      }
  Randomize;
End;

Procedure Done;
Begin
  SetIntVec($1C,Int1Ch);
  NoSound;
  Window(01,01,80,25);
  TextAttr := $1F;
  ClrScr;
  InLine($b4/1/           { mov ah,1  ; kursor ada lagi }
         $b9/7/0/         { mov cx,7 }
         $cd/$10);        { int 10h  }
End;

Procedure WriteXY(X, Y : Byte; St : String);
Begin
  GotoXY(X,Y);
  Write(St);
End;

Procedure Box(X1, Y1, X2, Y2, Attr, Back : Byte);
Begin
  Window(X1+2,Y1+1,X2+2,Y2+1);
  TextAttr := Back;
  ClrScr;
  Window(X1,Y1,X2,Y2);
  TextAttr := Attr;
  ClrScr;
  Window(01,01,80,25);
End;

Procedure Draw;
Var X : Byte;
Begin
  Port[985] := Blue;        { BORDER Biru pada CGA }
  Box(60,02,78,13,$2F,$07);
  WriteXY(62,04,'TOMBOL-TOMBOL :');
  WriteXY(64,06,#27'   : KIRI');
  WriteXY(64,07,#26'   : KANAN');
  WriteXY(64,08,#24'   : GAS');
  WriteXY(64,09,#25'   : REM');
  WriteXY(64,10,'F1  : SUARA');
  WriteXY(64,11,'Esc : KELUAR');
  Box(60,17,78,24,$4E,$07);
  WriteXY(62,18,'® SLALOM R1.0 ¯');
  WriteXY(63,20,'NTT   :'); Write(HighScr:6);
  WriteXY(63,21,'WAKTU :'); Write(20.0:6:1);
  WriteXY(63,22,'LAJU  :'); Write(0:6);
  WriteXY(63,23,'NILAI :'); Write(0:6);
  Window(01,01,Width+1,25);
  TextAttr := $F;
  ClrScr;
  Window(01,01,80,25);
  For X := 1 to 25 do
    Begin
      WriteXY(20,X,#178#178);
      WriteXY(19+Road,X,#178#178);
    End;
  WriteXY(22,15,#234);
  WriteXY(01,15,'SIAP ?');
  For X := 3 downto 1 do
    Begin
      If Noise then Sound(1000);
      Delay(100); NoSound; Delay(900);
      GotoXY(01,15); Write('....',X:2);
    End;
  If Noise then Sound(1000);
  Delay(1000);
  WriteXY(06,15,'GO !!!');
  NoSound;
End;

Procedure WriteInfo(Score, Gas : Word);
Var T : Byte;
Begin
  T := TextAttr;
  TextAttr := $4E;
  GotoXY(72,21); Write(20.0 + Start - Stop:4:1);
  GotoXY(70,22); Write(Gas:6);
  GotoXY(70,23); Write(Score:6);
  TextAttr := T;
End;

Function Enough : Boolean;
Var C : Char;
Begin
  Box(07,08,51,12,$4F,$1E);
  WriteXY(10,10,'ENTER UNTUK MAIN LAGI, ESC UNTUK KELUAR');
  While KeyPressed do C := ReadKey;
  Repeat
    C := ReadKey;
  Until C IN [#13,#27];
  Enough := C = #27;
End;

Procedure Run;
Begin
  Draw;
  Dly    := 50;
  Pos    := 20;
  XPos   := 22;
  Score  := 0;
  Quit   := False;
  RgArrP := False;
  LfArrP := False;
  UpArrP := False;
  DnArrP := False;
  F1P    := False;
  EscP   := False;
  GetTime(H,M,S,SD);
  Start := 3600*H+60*M+S+SD/100;
  Repeat
    GetTime(H,M,S,SD);
    Stop := 3600*H+60*M+S+SD/100;
    Passed := ((Stop - Start) > 20.0);
    If NOT ((Stop - Start) > 19.0) then
      Case Random(20) of
        0..7  : If (Pos > 1) then Dec(Pos);
        8..16 : If (Pos < (Width-Road)) then Inc(Pos);
      End;
    WriteXY(Pos,1,#178#178);
    WriteXY(Pos+Road-1,1,#178#178);
    Tree := Random(Width);
    If (Tree < Pos) OR (Tree > (Pos+Road)) then
      Begin
        TextAttr := 9+Random(7);
        WriteXY(Tree,1,#177);
        TextAttr := $F;
      End;
    If UpArrP then
      Begin
        If (Dly > MinDly) then Dec(Dly)
      End
    else
      If (Dly < MaxDly) then Inc(Dly);
    If DnArrP AND (Dly < (MaxDly-StepDly)) then
      Begin
        Inc(Dly,StepDly);
        If Noise then Sound(3951); { Suara Rem }
      End;
    WriteXY(XPos,15,#32);
    If (LfArrP AND (XPos > 1)) then Dec(XPos);
    If (RgArrP AND (XPos < Width)) then Inc(XPos);
    InLine($B8/1/7/       { mov ax,701h ; scroll down }
           $31/$C9/       { xor cx,cx    }
           $B6/24/        { mov dh,24    }
           $B2/           $B7/$f/        { mov bh,0fh   }
           $cd/$10);      { int 10h      }
    WriteXY(XPos,15,#234);
    If Noise then Sound(20+(MaxDly-Dly)*2); { Suara Mesin }
    Delay(Dly);
    Inc(Score);
    WriteInfo(Score,MinDly+MaxDly-Dly);
    If Passed then
      Begin
        Box(17,18,40,22,$4E,$2F);
        GotoXY(72,21); Write(0.0:4:1);
        If Score > 200 then
          Begin
            WriteXY(20,20,'SUKSES ! NILAI ');
            Write(Score);
          End
        else
          WriteXY(20,20,'TERLALU LAMBAT !');
        If Score > HighScr then
          Begin
            If HighScr <> 0 then
              Begin
                Sound(500); Delay(200);
                WriteXY(20,21,'NILAI TERTINGGI !!!');
                Sound(200); Delay(200);
              End;
            HighScr := Score;
          End;
        Sound(500); Delay(200);
        Sound(200); Delay(500);
        NoSound;
      End;
    If (Mem[$B800:(XPos-1)*2+13*160] <> 32) then
      Begin
        Mem[$B800:(XPos-1)*2+14*160+1] := $8C;
        Box(17,18,40,22,$4E,$2F);
        WriteXY(23,20,'TABRAKAN !!!');
        For Dly := 1 to 150 do
          Begin
            If Noise then Sound(50+Random(700));
            Delay(5);
          End;             { Mobil Meledak ! }
        Quit := True;
        NoSound;
      End;
  Until Quit OR Passed;
End;

BEGIN
  Init;
  Repeat
    Run
  Until Enough;
  Done;
END.

Tahun Kadaluwarsa LPG? Bukan!

2008-10-28T05:13:00.000-07:00

Baru saja saya menerima email mengenai tabung LPG dan insiden tabung meledak yang banyak terjadi. Bahwa agar masyarakat jangan memakai tabung LPG yang tahun kadaluwarsa seperti tertera di tiap tabung tersebut.

Setelah saya cek (by the power of Google), ternyata informasi penanggalan di tiap tabung LPG berisikan waktu pembuatan.

Lengkapnya ada disini: http://www.bsn.or.id/files/sni/SNI%201452-2007.pdf

Jadi jika kita tidak mau pakai tabung LPG yang penanggalannya sudah lewat, itu malah akan berarti kita tidak dapat memakai tabung LPG manapun.

Satu pertanyaan kecil yang membuat saya berfikir, siapa juga yang menulis email tersebut pertama kali?

Satu lagi bukti bahwa asal forward email bisa berbahaya.

brick walls are there for a reason

2008-10-07T23:28:00.000-07:00

"Brick walls are there for a reason. They let us prove how badly we want things."

"Wait long enough, and people will surprise and impress you."

...from Randy Pausch's Last Lecture

Now what I want most is to spend more time with my family...

404

2008-09-25T19:06:00.001-07:00

nice 404 poetry here.

btw, happy birthday vee.

68%

2008-09-24T19:54:00.000-07:00

thanks to roy suryo, angka 68% menjadi angka keramat di jagad maya.

sebetulnya dari mana sih angka tersebut? did roy just pull that number out of his *ss?

nope, asalnya ada dari sini

Work Offer Fraud

2008-09-22T03:05:00.000-07:00

It seems that Nigerian 419 scams has been raised one level. They are somehow harvesting victim data from some employment board. Which board? I dunno yet, because the samples I am receiving are very limited.

Here you go...

Buku Pelajaran Bahasa Indonesia SD Kelas 1 Catur Wulan 1

2008-09-04T23:28:00.001-07:00

Buku Pelajaran Bahasa Indonesia SD Kelas 1 Catur Wulan 1
Originally uploaded by aip_

The most sacred book (for anak SD kelas 1.. apalagi yang belum bisa baca... the holiest of the holy).. hehehe

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish

2008-09-01T18:07:00.001-07:00

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish
Originally uploaded by Alol

The picture as referred by Steve Jobs on his Stanford Class 2005 Commencement Speech.

The text is here.

Tubelover 10Y-RE604 Amplifier

2008-08-29T11:36:00.001-07:00

Tubelover 10Y-RE604 Amplifier
Originally uploaded by Tubelover

IDR 40.000.000,-... yummeh..

Black campaign against SBY?

2008-08-29T03:52:00.001-07:00

Black campaign against SBY?
Originally uploaded by aip_

I dunno.. you tell me, man

phd comics

2008-08-24T20:03:00.000-07:00

gue bukan phd, tapi komiknya gue banget xD

3G bruhaha

2008-08-16T10:39:00.001-07:00

TSEL_Flash
Originally uploaded by aip_

i know i'm not the smartest ass in the world, but i definitely dont need one service to inform me as such..

blah

Adam Air 574

2008-08-06T22:07:00.000-07:00

i dunno of whether the recording is genuine or not, but listening to it seriously scares the shit out of me..

if i have to make the call, most probably its genuine...

the official and complete report is here

Tube amp

2008-07-14T19:07:00.001-07:00

Integrated Amp Single-ended EL34-6SL7 SRPP
Originally uploaded by Gudang Online Alex (GOA)

I'm still looking for russian 6SL7 matched pair... Unfortunately, stock of 6SL7 are usually not as many as 6SN7.. Sekalinya ada yang bagus, penawarannya muahallll hehehe

Mesti lebih sabar nyarinya..

citarum

2008-07-08T18:25:00.001-07:00

Citarum-Bridge-from-BDG
Originally uploaded by fajari

as fajar put it, good old days..

So which one are you?

2008-06-26T18:38:00.000-07:00

A Project Manager is a person who thinks nine women can deliver a baby in one month.

A Developer is a person who thinks it will take 18 months to deliver a baby.

An On-site Coordinator is one who thinks single woman can deliver nine babies in one month.

A Client is the one who doesn't know why he wants a baby.

A Marketing Manager is a person who think he can deliver a baby even if no man and woman are available.

A Resource Optimization Team thinks they don't need a man or woman; they'll produce a child with zero resources.

A Documentation Team thinks they don't care whether the child is delivered, they'll just document 9 months.

A Quality Auditor is the person who is never happy with the PROCESS to produce a baby.

and lastly...

A Tester is a person who always tells his wife that this is not the right baby.

A Vendor is the one who assumes that he has the perfect baby.

latest one..

A Purchasing Manager is a person who thinks, rather than wait, its faster to adopt a baby.

Ubuntu 8.04

2008-06-05T09:12:00.001-07:00

Ubuntu 8.04
Originally uploaded by aip_

just came onto my desk this morning.. imho, the coolest part is the stickers!

mimpi lama

2008-05-26T17:55:00.000-07:00

cheap yet functional ERP for Indonesian Small & Micro Enterprises

mimpi lama karena sampe sekarang belum jadi jadi, dan proses bikinnya lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

chaiyo aja lah...

work interview

2008-05-26T01:30:00.000-07:00

q: what's your weaknesses?

a: well.. sometimes, i have trouble accepting that i actually am flawless

*gubrak*

Ultah #2

2008-05-23T08:58:00.001-07:00

Ultah Gaby #2 (3)
Originally uploaded by aip_

she grows fast... replicating almost every new word she listens to..

hari ini ultah yang kedua ya dek... like i said, you grow fast... i feel it wont be long till you grow up more, and me and your ma will become the two things that you most dreaded... hehe... hope not..

keep growing, dear.. every living thing in this universe deserve that.. for us, especially you

33rd birthday

2008-05-21T05:20:00.001-07:00

33
Originally uploaded by aip_

so i guess this is a crop of what went on my last birthday.. there was no celebration or something, but somehow my wife and our good friends came with a cake, woke me up from my sleep asked me to blow the candle...

my daughter was the one whom were excited seeing the cake.. she seemed couldn't wait to put her hands on the cake to taste it hehe

now seeing this picture.. i realize the icing on the cake that day was not the cake nor the candle.. it was her.. how my life changed by her..

with you having same blood type as mine.. with your many other characteristics which seems like a mirror onto my eyes, i feel like i know you.. feels like i understand what you are thinking...

your presence is the most precious present.. ever..

i love you, gaby...

hopefully you will forgive me for being a very far from perfect daddy i am...

uber menang lawan jerman

2008-05-21T05:00:00.001-07:00

Uber 2008 #5
Originally uploaded by aip_

a victory, albeit small.. enough to cure my loss of nationalism... :)

that guy

2008-04-13T02:38:00.000-07:00

i'm still hanging on to my thought, that 'that guys' deserves a lawsuit..

err..

2008-04-04T00:09:00.000-07:00

is this thing still on?

episode #11551

2006-05-01T03:20:00.000-07:00

same day as any day, work sucks..

move along..

tiesto

2006-04-24T18:15:00.000-07:00

dj sinting... kuat bener sekian jam ngespin...

upside: lagu2nya oke... crowdnya asik...

downside: banyak copet (and omg they are so obvious).. mobil gue dibaret pas parkir... bah bah..

planet urectum

2006-04-12T00:29:00.000-07:00

a dayfull of nothing

2006-04-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

hilllarious

2006-03-16T17:11:00.000-08:00

http://www.chucknorrisfacts.com/ :)

kabut

2006-03-06T02:10:00.000-08:00

padahal udah jam 7.15... dan cuaca nggak gitu dingin juga...

akhirnya berangkat ke jakarta dengan lampu depan menyala plus lampu kabut on.

pertanda apa kah? sayang gue nggak ngerti elmu cuaca..

indomie paling enak

2006-03-01T18:39:00.000-08:00

adalah indomie PMI yang dimakan setelah mengeluarkan darah 350cc...

padahal dimakannya nggak pake saos sambel gitu... tetep aja enak, hehehe...

btw, terakhir mendonor sekitar 10 tahun yg lalu.. dan berasa banget dampak dari mendonor: 3 hari merasakan lapar yang amat sangat, huhu...

told you so...

2006-02-23T00:29:00.000-08:00

buku baru

2005-11-24T23:09:00.000-08:00

siang ini habis mengambil buku pesanan di qb jl sunda..

karena...

saya ambil bukunya setelah semalam si mbak dari qb menelpon memberitahukan bahwa buku yang say a pesan sudah datang

sebelumnya...

ketika hapenya berdering, dari nomor yg muncul saya kira yang menelpon adalah teman lama... dan setelah kujawab dengan "OY!" ternyata si mbak qb yang berbicara..

i dunno seberapa sering si mbak qb saat menelpon kastemer dijawab dengan "OY!", but i bet kayaknya nggak sering..

bukunya adalah 'the curious incident...'nya mark haddon... sangat telat sekali bahwa baru hari ini saya mendapatkannya..

i really hope i'll find this book to be boring, cos that most probably means that i'm not qualified to be categorized as an autist...

well...

God knows no ego...

2005-10-10T18:20:00.000-07:00

...other than himself's

episode #11330

2005-09-22T00:34:00.000-07:00

anxiety disorder... authority-acknowledgement problem...

i'm screwed...

surprise party

2005-09-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

after office hour, wawa called me, to go with neng to pizza hut scbd to accompany her dinner. i said ok, knowing neng would be ok too.

got there at around 1900, with only wawa sitting. i called dede and dede was still on senayan going to scbd. chat chat hihi haha for a while, till i founded out that lae was sitting on the other spot. i asked him to join.

while he and i chat chat hihi haha, ujug2 japra dateng. i said 'hellooo watta koinsidens?'... and while more chat chat haha went on, arlan dateng (plung!)

i started to feel very very wierd... what's going on??

turned out that neng arranged wawa, dede, babeh, mamah, ade, temen icph dan sjco untuk dateng ke pizza hut merayakan ulang tahun saya.

i feel surprised indefinitely.. it's been a very long long time ulang tahun saya 'dirayakan' rame2

anti-social + surprise-party = cango-manggo-guilty-feeling

not good.. not good..

episode #11323

2005-09-15T02:39:00.000-07:00

its my birthday today

but yet i feel mostly anti-social today...

i sincerely thank my friends for all the calls and sms-es...

yet deep inside i feel wierd..

so they say...

2005-06-19T23:09:00.000-07:00

a pessimists may have a more accurate estimation of handling things, but an optimists is more likely to succeed on it.

cinta?.. blah

2004-02-15T23:58:00.000-08:00

its neurochemically 'official'... love comes in three flavours: lust, romantic love and long-term attachment [more...]

imho.. dari dulu cinta emang selalu terbagi tiga.. kepala, hati dan pinggang.. so in this case "long-term attachment" equals "kepala", "romantic love" equals "hati"... dan "lust" equals "pinggang".... bener gak ya? hehe..

so which one should we go after, jo?

kalo mengingat event nyonya itsywitsy kemarin sih, kayaknya "kepala" yg kudu harus selalu prevail... kayaknya in the end, soal cinta, logika juga yg harus akhirnya digjaya...

btw, berikut oleh oleh dari jalan jalan ke lippo supermall karawaci pas hari valentine kemarin

ada pesta kembang api disana...

a | b | c | d | e | f | g | h | i | j | k | l

and above is what happen when you get too close to the fire... some debris gosong of the fireworks actually fell onto my head... luckily i'm still alive, heh?.. even thou some of thealready inadequate iq points may have dropped from my head because of that.. (hehe... superlatip)

dari bdg

2004-02-13T20:18:00.000-08:00

dari bandung minggu kemarin..

i was in bandung that day.. too bad nggak sempet mampir ke nikahannya adhit dan ninit

yap.. bebas dia

2004-02-13T02:24:00.000-08:00

"what is morally wrong shall never be legally right" kata mas donny ke temen-temennya yang lagi nongkrong di warung

"artinya apaan tuh mas?" tanya mang ihin ke mas donny

"maksudnya apa yang secara moral nggak bener, nggak boleh secara hukum jadi boleh" jawab mas donny

"idealnya begitu..." sahut dian

"iya, harusnya begitu..." tukas mang ihin dengan nada sok tau

"tapi tidak disini.." mas donny meneruskan

"maksudnya, tidak sekarang?" tanya dian nggak mau kalah

...

"belum sekarang.." kang dadang ikut nyeletuk

"nanti..." kata mang ihin dengan nada yakin

...

...

....

"kapan?" ujar mang ihin dengan muka bingung

pelangi

2004-02-11T18:07:00.000-08:00

the rain came. good. hopefully, it may freshen up the darn grass yg nggak bener bener juga tumbuhnya sejak ditanem dengan berpeluh kringet asin di tengah puasa dua bulan lalu. apa yg salah ya dg rumput rumput itu? dikasih pupu mbe, udah. pupu kebo, udah juga. malah kadang kadang doggy tetangga pun kadang nginvest pupunya disitu..weleh rumput, what's wrong with you? nggak cukup apa pupuk tiga macem itu? kalo minta pupuk aroma lain idung gue dah gak rela, jo.

terus setelah ujannya pergi, pelanginya ternyata ketinggalan.. the rainbow looks lovely, membentuk setengah lingkaran tertelungkup, dg satu kaki terlihat di gn. hambalang dan satu kaki lagi di gn. pancar..

kok kepikiran ya, pelangi itu kayak mewakili manusia dan tuhannya. maksudnya kalo misal warna gw coklat, terus warna dikau biru, babeh gw merah (warna carok atawa preman emang merah kan? :), warna dodo ijo, si dudung jiwanya kuning, si wawa cocoknya tipe ungu, si kodir oranye, dst dst... then we are supposed to live side by side peacefully, right?

after all, all of the colors indeed come from one source, the light, that bright white light thing.. and if we all the colors stand together, there will be only one color exist and seen.. white.

(ceracau kacau karena kebanyakan minum parasetamol kali nih)

akbar bebas?

2004-02-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

dear God... our God... please help us not to feel hopeless...

neo oh neo

2004-02-03T06:45:00.000-08:00

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ada yg dung2 di antara orang2 di layanan webhosting gue :(

so much for a total customer satisfcktion :P

btw, thinking of stop using blogger.. ftp dari blogger ke ftp.wiena.net suka putus sih.. sigh...

sekalian ganti layout kali ye...

mlm tepu2

2004-02-03T06:34:00.000-08:00

ujug ujug masuk ini di email :

xxxxxxx wrote:

pak arief,
beberapa teman mitra bisnis saya yang kebetulan nasabah bca membuat aktivitas bussiness network yang menarik (hmmmm... network business eh?); dengan modal kecil dan memanfaatkan jaringan pertemanan yang ada, kita bisa mendapatkan uang (money?.. who doesnt want money???... i'm in... show the way to hell beibih, i'm iiiiiinnnnn!!!) yang langsung ditransfer ke rekening bca kita. jumlahnya bisa lebih dari cukup untuk membeli apa yang bapak impikan (now gimme a sec to imagine driving a z3 :). saya yakin apa yang saya tawarkan ini bukanlah sesuatu yang main-main. pelajari sistem dan mekanismenya sebelum bapak ingin bergabung agar bapak yakin bahwa program yang saya tawarkan ini memang memiliki potensi seperti yang dijanjikan pengelola situs ini :

http://www.rantaiemas.com/promo/web?open&mbrid=xxxxxx

kabarnya nasabah bca ada sekitar 10 juta orang. kalau kita bisa mendapatkan 0.1% dari total nasabah atau sekitar 10.000 orang, maka potensi pendapatan kita sekitar rp 120 jutaan. bukankah angka yang lebih dari cukup untuk membeli pda terbaru (uuuu.. piiidiii eeeeh *droll*)dengan notebook terbaru pula untuk modal bisnis. (waitt waittttt... i cant even get myself into the program.. how can i get 10000? 8)

saya ingin mendapatkannya, rasanya bapak juga pasti ingin memperolehnya; tapi kalau bapak tidak tertarik dengan tawaran ini, kiranya bisa diteruskan kepada rekan-rekan bapak arief yang mungkin bersedia untuk mencobanya.

untuk mencapai impian, modal rp 69.000,- mungkin nilai yang wajar untuk dipertaruhkan.

salam,
xxxxxxx

note : bila karena suatu hal kode id sponsor tidak muncul ketikan id sponsor saya ini : xxxxxxx

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saya mbales pun

hallo
thanks for the offer, but no.
regards,
arief

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dibales euy

xxxxxxxx wrote:
terimakasih pak arief atas email balasannya. saya hargai putusan anda. hal yang biasa dalam memasarkan suatu produk adalah diterima atau ditolak (hmmm... why do i smell mlm talkin talk in here?), bukankah begitu? namun kalau pak arief tidak keberatan dan ini bukan keharusan anda untuk membalasnya, boleh saya tahu alasan bapak menolak tawaran saya ini? karena akan sangat berguna bagi saya bilamana saya mendapatkan masukan sehingga saya bisa memperbaiki diri. apalagi memasarkan produk bussiness network seperti ini umumnya amat bergantung pada kepercayaan calon konsumer pada pemasarnya.

mungkin saja, tawaran yang saya ajukan memberikan citra yang kurang baik di mata pak arief.

sekali lagi terimakasih atas kesediaan anda membalas email saya karena setidaknya ada respon dari bapak.

salam,
xxxxxxx

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allright...for iseng sake, i reply

halo mas xxxxxxxx,
menurut pendapat saya pribadi, semua usaha itu baik. namun bagi saya pribadi, usaha yang baik adalah suatu usaha yang jelas nilai tambahnya. 'nilai tambah' atau 'value adding/added' itu menurut saya pribadi adalah dasar ekonomi yang memungkinkan dunia usaha berputar.

contohnya 'nilai tambah' misalnya: seorang supir angkot menerima uang dari penumpangnya atas jasa antara yang ia berikan. seorang pedagang menerima uang dari pembeli atas jasa penyediaan/penjualan barang. seorang pekerja menerima uang/gaji sebagai balas jasa atas pekerjaannya selama satu bulan.

dari ketiga contoh di atas terlihat bahwa uang yang diterima adalah sebagai hasil atau keuntungan dari suatu usaha yang dilakukan oleh seseorang. jadi modal(input) ditambah usaha(proses) = keuntungan(output). pada kasus 'usaha' yang mas tawarkan, saya tidak menemukan faktor nilai tambah ini.

kemudian secara matematis pun, jenis usaha yang mas tawarkan tidak untuk semua orang, karena jika semua orang berusaha dengan cara yang sama, maka ada sekian banyak yang akan tetap kehilangan investasinya. dari sudut pandang agama saya, usaha tersebut lebih banyak mudharat/kejelekannya daripada manfaatnya.

dan di sisi lain, uang 69000 itu bukan kecil lho mas... di negeri kita ini banyak cerita sedih karena uang receh.. preman saling membunuh karena uang 1000... anak nyaris bunuh diri hanya karena orang tuanya tidak memiliki uang 2500...

jika uang 69000 itu tidak berarti buat mas, lebih baik mas berikan ke yang membutuhkan... insya Allah lebih bermanfaat..

wassalam,
arief

italic words/sentences was added by me

...

heck man... daripada ngikut begonoan, i'd rather join pembalap kampung dah.. more adrenaline kicks, with total stupidity to the max... join bisnis jaringan tepu-tepu begono mah tanggung... nggak keren ah. hehe...

nonton lotr3

2004-02-03T01:48:00.000-08:00

libur panjang.. 3 hari.. harusnya lumayan buat jalan-jalan atau leha-leha..

tapi apa daya, jumat sore malah nggak enak badan... awalnya kirain kena hypochondria, tapi pas di rumah dikero'i neng langsung moentjoel garis-garis merah hitam di punggung.. masuk angin, bow...

even thou lagi masuk angin, kerjaan dari gedung sebelah mesti disetor selasa pagi.. jadi moonlighting jalan terus sepanjang wekeend.. so much for a long weekend, hehe..

sampe pas hari senin.. too much work affect my eyesight.. so jalan-jalan bareng temen-temen yg lucu buat cuti mata.. nonton lotr3 [yeeeehaaaa!!!...

gollum aktingnya bagus benerrr (kecuali pas dia nyemplung ke lava.. kok ndak njerit kepanasan ya?.. waktu dulu disiksa saruman(?) dia nangis-nangis kok...)]

sebelum nonton ketemu si ocit di food court, terus ngantri bareng buat beli tiket lotr3.... ternyata ocit suka mampir kesini (ya cit? hehe :P).. kok gak pernah ngisi komen ata gesbuk?.. [si ocit teh temen dari jaman kuda banget.. dari jaman maenan masih ada patung-patungan tom and jerry.. ] i promised ocit to put his face in this blog.. just wait cit.. i'll put your cute face alright, just be ready of how old the picture's age.. of how young we were when the pic was taken.. of how cute we all are back then.. nggak kayak sekarang dah basi begini tampang-tampangnya.. dampak kebanyakan ngeganja??? hoehoehoe... j/k xP

eh 4:38pm already.. better start going home.. pick up neng di scbd.. dah kebayang lewatin jalan cikatomas, tendean, kemang, ampera, tol ring road, pintu tol pasar rebo, cibubur, cimanggis, dst dst.. yg in the end ujung perjalanannya cuma satu: kasur empuk... hmmmmmmmm.. i feel sleepy already..

anyer

2004-01-27T18:21:00.000-08:00

to the beach, beibiiihhh.... kenang-kenangan minggu kemarin..

its wednesday already today.. cant wait for another weekend.. live for weekends...

bicara weekend, kayaknya satu weekend di kalender februari dah dibooking sama juragan peniti alam... asoy, hehehe...

reading for this week: folklore... interesting backstage stories of apple inc

virus

2004-01-27T00:59:00.000-08:00

hebat, hebat... penuh deh mailbox gara-gara benda itu... jago deh nyang mbikin.. salute, salute.. :P

ngantuk

2004-01-19T19:50:00.000-08:00

udah dua minggu, tiap pagi di bangku ini.. ngantuk

apa perlu kopi?

hosting disabled

2004-01-15T18:10:00.000-08:00

my web hosting provider has just disabled access to my web mail and control panel, so i dunno whether the ftp access is disabled too (therefore this posting may or may not be posted on d halaman coklat)..

if i may to rant, the stupidity is on their side... their billing statement had stop coming for months.. when the billing was first ceased to come, i've ask them thru email asking about my billing details (the outstanding amount, payment due date etc).. no response... send them email again.. and still no response... [at one point i tought the company was simply out of business.. or having screw-ups on their management]

till early this month, on 6th, they sent an invoice... i guess they expect me to pay them asap cos it is just 10 days now and i'm planning to send them the money on the 26th. they just disabled my access... jeez, gimme a break...

the heck, i'm the customer.. i'm giving them, and in this capitalist world that makes me deserve to be heard.. or i just simply give my money onto someone else's pocket.. huh.. [i guess now i can see singcat.com to be a much cheaper webhosting provider while providing more features]

enough rant... i'll just send a complaint email to their billing officer...

update: ftp access is disabled too, so i guess this post will not shows on my web site.. ahh, crap

update part zwoi: "rekan support kami akan segera mengaktifkan account anda"... let see if this works...

update part drei: ftp is back on again now.. finally

3in1

2004-01-14T23:37:00.000-08:00

kemarin sore saat mo njemput neng, di blok s ada kancil... sepintas kepala benda itu kayak helicak, tapi bannya empat.. bentuknya culun dengan lampu depan yg kayak bajay bener.. hehe.. sayang kamera lagi tersimpan rapi dalam tas di bangku belakang, jadi gak sempet ceprat cepret...

hari ini heboh bener soal busway.. dari jumlah 'turis' yang melebihi proyeksi, sampe turis turisnya ogah turun di tujuan.. hehe.. memang naik bisnya itu yg jadi tujuan wisata.. :)

btw, mulai februari depan si leeloo nggak bisa masuk jakarta tiap selasa.. alamak.. dari bogor ke pancoran naik bis umumnya apa ya?

nothing

2004-01-12T18:46:00.000-08:00

never test for an error condition you don't know how to handle. -- steinbach

never ask question which you aren't ready for the answer -- me?

sabtu pagi kemarin, ibu-ibu pkk di rt sayah jalan-jalan ke ciater untuk arisan dan ngerumpi. selagi ibu-ibunya sibuk dengan urusannya, beberapa anak-anak mereka diam-diam 'nyemplung' ke sungai untuk mandi-mandi air panas. waduh, jadi ngiri dan pengen nyebur guah...

ngomongin "pengen", pengen juga naek gunung gede lagi... atawa tracking pun okeh. ollie, balq.. kumaha yeuh, jadi gak nih rencana jalan2nya? :)

ngelamun

2004-01-08T00:23:00.000-08:00

if i can see what i could imagine, can i imagine what i could see?

3in1

2004-01-07T01:23:00.000-08:00

horeee!!! hiduppp three in oneeee!!! hidup buswaayyy!!! hidup bapak gubernur!!! hidup em ar tiiiii!!!!! huhuuuuuuuu

*sarkasm mod enabled*

jalan berangkat n pulang kantorrrrrrr mangkin macet ajaaa, huahahahahahaha

new year 2004

2003-12-31T09:41:00.000-08:00

at first there was peace...

and suddenly from the left side... with a sound like gatling toy-gun

from the right side, a u-f-o? ;P

from afront of the house... a counter-strike

and finally...

geez.. i live in a crazy neighborhood...

happy new year 2004, guys!!!

(and if i just be able to get some sleep now :P )

my first computer

2003-12-28T05:40:00.000-08:00

beeeep!

286 Modular BIOS Version 3.10d

Copyright(c)1984-90 Award Software Inc.

*** SUNTAC ***



TESTING INTERRUPT CONTROLLER #1................PASS

TESTING INTERRUPT CONTROLLER #2................PASS

TESTING CMOS BATTERY...........................PASS

TESTING CMOS CHECKSUM..........................PASS

SIZING SYSTEM MEMORY......................640K FOUND

TESTING SYSTEM MEMORY.....................640K PASS

CHECKING UNEXPECTED INTERRUPTS AND STUCK NMI...PASS

TESTING PROTECTED MODE.........................PASS

SIZING EXTENDED MEMORY..................00384K FOUND

TESTING MEMORY IN PROTECTED MODE........01024K PASS

TESTING PROCESSOR EXCEPTION INTERRUPT..........PASS



SYSTEM KEY IS IN LOCKED POSITION - KEYBOARD IS LOCKED OUT

TURN KEY TO UNLOCKED POSITION AND











PRESS F1 KEY TO CONTINUE OR CTRL-ALT ESC FOR SETUP...

and so it begun...

huh

2003-12-27T06:49:00.000-08:00

silence is golden

bsod

2003-12-25T05:13:00.000-08:00

definitely the best 'blue screen of death' i've ever seen *huge devilish grin*

dare to touch the 'any' key? :P

kamera

2003-12-22T19:05:00.000-08:00

popular photography edisi desember 2003 mengelompokkan kamera berdasarkan:

pro level digital slr (1ds, 1d, d2h, d1x, 14n)
digital slr (10d, d100, sd10, *ist, 300d, etc)
digital evf (kelasnya cp5700, f717, a1,etc)
advanced digital compact (g5, c5060, 5400, v1, etc)
digital compact (a70/80, optio555, p92, cp3100, f410, etc...)
cute digital camera (u50, ixus, dimage-xt, casio, etc...)

mo beli yang mana, ip? *kayak yg punya duit aja!* :P

new year's resolution

2003-12-21T18:06:00.000-08:00

just uploaded a new file to fn...

...

new year, less ego

can i?

will i?

IE spoof bug

2003-12-18T19:30:00.000-08:00

holy cow, i gotta update my IE now!

that darn bug is so annoying...

mom, i dont want a battle drone.. just my own dancing robot on my own room.. can i have it?....

pleaseeeeeeeeeeee? 8-)

clone

2003-12-17T23:39:00.000-08:00

i've heard that human cloning is already being done, and in fact, in one court in the u.s., a witness stated that one living human clone live in israel... in this news today, a small glimpse of a scientist steps on the process to get there...

btw, talk about cloning, i think there's no need to create army of clone (like what's on star wars II). cos looking at todays tech availibility, i'm still waiting for the day i see electronic battle drones equipped with gatling guns on top of ibot wheels... invading another iraq, if i may sound to be bitter.. :)

pempek.org

2003-12-11T19:44:00.000-08:00

haha... akhirnya si odek bikin blog juga :)

bowling

2003-12-11T07:59:00.000-08:00

seumur-umur, baru malem ini megang yg namanya bola bowling

g*mb*l.. tangan jadi pegel bener x(

halalbihalal blogbugs

2003-12-09T21:42:00.000-08:00

foto-foto di hari halalbihalal blogbugs

harinya dimulai dengan bangun pagi dan siap-siap ke nikahannya gita, adeknya odek. setelah bermacet-macet di cililitan, ternyata di resepsinya gita malah ketemu sama anti, temen deketnya neng waktu di dc. small world.

dari nikahan gita langsung ke ps, janjian sama vee.

keliling-keliling ps dan dekorasi bola-bola gitu bagus juga euy.

sore-sorean kemudian sms-an ke tante eo. dan kemudian malah bumped dengan kang rickiw dan teh renha, so nongkrong bareng aja di bangku keluar 21.

jam 6, dan ternyata tam2 dah duluan di foodcourt... bareng cassie dan gacoan barunya.

please note bahwa di foto diatas didiet masih terlihat normal dengan topinya itu... ini sebelum dia ngebajak topi ita dan turned him to look like a smurf (imho)

si tante dan om yg bener-bener epitomize the word 'banci foto'!

iqbal lagi ngisengin sebelahnya (oy.. jailnya ntar di rumah aja dong, joe!)

ternyata ibu chrysalyc itu bawel abis ya... hehehe... first time to meet and i'm already impressed.. hihihi..

terus, pak ollie ternyata adalah satu kantor pun dengan pak sundoro, so pasti dah pernah ketemuan sometime di tahun 99 atau 2000... (pak ollie, kapan mo makan sate kiloan?... silahkan datang! :)

ngobrol panjang kali lebar (pake istilahnya si tante eo), dan jam 9 sekian baru balik.... (buset.. betah bener pade di foodcourt aje)

pulang ke rumah... dan selagi di jalan bulan ternyata lagi fullmoon!...

sampe di rumah, dan ternyata bulan masih fullmoon...

halalbihalal

2003-12-07T20:01:00.000-08:00

so i guess liburan lebaran has finally over.. hehe... menyenangkan liburnya dan gue masih denial bahwa liburnya dah selesai.. sampe pas tadi pagi, machednya jagorawi (dimulai kilometer 12) kick me back to the reality.. its finally over.. :) bye bye deh relatif lancarnya lalu lintas jakarta..

btw, i've been doing a fotolog... and here is the address: http://fotolog.net/jakarta.. please stop by if you can...

lebaran 2003

2003-11-25T06:09:00.000-08:00

mohon maaf lahir bathin..

wish you wish us all de best..

419

2003-11-17T23:35:00.000-08:00

bacaan sehat buat ngabuburit... "i pray to die henceforth"..

and i laughed my *ss off.. three times... x)

beberes rumah

2003-11-16T19:43:00.000-08:00

apa yg lagi musim pas lagi bulan puasa gini? ...

bukber.. alias buka puasa bareng...

kayak sabtu kemarin, icph dan keluarga rais ngadain bukber bersama di hari yg sama.. dan di hari itu juga mesin cuci dan boks buku-buku lagi on de wei pindahan... so instead of going bukber ke salah satu acara, i was stuck waiting for those stuff.. d*rn... so pas mo buka akhirnya menghibur diri aja dengan mesen tongseng kambing...

minggu.. ke bogor.. beli beras di hero dan nyari rumput buat [dimakan?.. mbeeee! nope].. ditanem di pekarangan. spent 3 hours maenin pacul dan sekop, mendistribusi pasir, kompos dan ai embe [aka pupuk kandang] merata ke pekaranngan, terus menanam taneman dan rumput..

sambil ngerumput [mbeeeee!!! :P ]... err salah... ngenanem.. err.. sambil berkebun itu [that's the word], kok ya jadi keinget sama mertua yg emang hobinya berkebun... semoga aja berkebun bukan kerjaan orang-orang tua aja.. gue belum mau disebut tua, jo...

btw, selamet buat adit buat bukunya!.. salute!

why personal websites matter

2003-11-14T22:17:00.000-08:00

... a personal website is not about putting private information online. it is about making available information/opinions that a person finds interesting, and in the process, indirectly documenting his/her interests, opinions, skills, and personality

nice point.. :)

nikon quits film photography

2003-11-13T23:53:00.000-08:00

nikon to focus on digital cameras

tokyo -- major japanese camera maker nikon plans to discontinue its 35-mm compact film camera operations in japan and focus on digital cameras, a report said on thursday. the company aims to boost profitability by focusing on the higher growth digital field, the nihon keizai shimbun reported, quoting company sources. a nikon spokesman said no official decision has been taken but acknowledged film camera sales were shrinking.

'it is a fact that the film camera business is shrinking worldwide. volume sales are also falling but for the time being, we will continue our film camera operations,' he said. global shipments of compact film cameras fell below expectations in the first half to september at 440,000, short of a target of 500,000, he added. on the other hand, the company on tuesday upgraded its target for digital camera sales to 5.5 million from the previous estimate of 4.6 million. last year, the company shipped 3.6 million digital cameras.

the newspaper reported that nikon will halt all development of 35mm compact cameras for the domestic market from this point on and end shipments to stores starting in the year beginning next april.

the firm currently does not make any compact film cameras in-house, instead outsourcing production to japanese companies that manufacture the cameras overseas, the newspaper reported. – afp

...

from news i've heard all these years, i know digital photography will overrun film one.. [6mpx di digital dah lebih baik dari film 35mm], but i didn't expect this soon... for me purrsonally, this may means two things... 1) kalo mo beli digital slr macam D100 tinggal tunggu tahun tahun depan dimana harga bakal turun abis [sok teu mode on].. dan 2) film photography bakalan makin terpinggirkan [kalo katak odek, niche].. dan kalo gue mo beli kamera film macam nikon f65, f85, beli sekarang! makin dintarin belinya, makin sedikit barangnya.. meaning most likely makin naek harganya.. :)

dan kalo sampe beli pun [kalo dapet duit jatohan entah dari mana :)], ongkos mencetak film pun bakalan makin naek.. pertimbangannya, buat studio proses foto masih lebih murah beli yg digital [banyak usernya, banyak stock barangnya]...

within 5 years, "serieus/slr" fotografi nggak bakal jadi hobi mahal lagi... [sok teu mode on lagi, tapi kayaknya bakal bener sih]

2003-11-10T18:47:00.000-08:00

talk about spam (from /.), now one vendor tried to spam user using their router... the router will route one http call for every 8 hours to a page on the vendor's web server.. unless, the user click 'no thanks' on that page once every router hard reset...

talk about buying something and getting a service it not suppose to have.. and its an annoying feature also

waiter: "hi, i'll be your waiter tonight."
customer: "great! i'd like a cup of the soup please."

[waiter takes out a hammer, thwaps customer on skull]

customer: "wtf was that for?"

waiter: "sir, i'll stop thwapping you on the head as soon as you tell me to stop."

customer: "why the hell would i have to tell you to stop?"

[waiter thwaps customer once more]

customer: "god dammit!"

waiter: "just say 'stop,' sir, and this will all be over..."

(and later when the waiter gets hard-reset, the customer would have to wear a helmet... repeat ad infinitum :)

leonid shower

2003-11-09T23:34:00.000-08:00

ayo aip!.. siap siap!! sahur jumat besok, ada leonid shower di langit!!!

nggak saur

2003-11-05T20:11:00.000-08:00

nggak saur dan telat bangun pagi ini..

nasib...

online dari rumah

2003-11-04T19:57:00.000-08:00

teknisi telkom dateng ke rumah dan ngasi tau kalo telkom dah ngasih nomor di 'rumah di ujung dunia' ini...

hore!.. yippeeee!!! whatever!!.... akhirnya jadi bagian dunia telekomunikasi juga tempat ini..

sehabis sesiangan nungguin si teknisi ngoprek kabel dan testing sana sini, nyala juga line telponnya... mhuahahaha.. xP

nggak tunggu ba bu lagi, gue langsung cabut ke ratu plasa.. beli modem.. mwakaka..

cabut pulang, tarik kabel telpon dari ruang tamu ke lantai atas, terus modem langsung dipasang..

setengah jam kemudian win-xp dah siap nge-dial-up... horehore.com!

gue cengar-cengir sendiri ngedenger suara handshakingnya si modem (dah lama nggak denger)

nggak sampe semenit, dah connected.. msmsg langsung kedap-kedip connecting..

nggak sampe lima menit, dah browsing mulai ngedownload yahoomsg..

nggak sampe sepuluh menit, si xp tau-tau pingsan error shutting-down

wassap?

.. rpc error, need to be restarted.. dammit!!! blaster worm kuda-laut! cupang mati! pisang gosong! anjrit!!!!

gue jadi nyadar bahua selama ini keenakan ngebrowsing dibelakang firewall di kantor, jadi lupa kalo konek langsung ke internet dari rumah begini dah way beyond my previous knowledge lagi.. i feel so dumb...

ndak sampe dua jam dari tadi mulai nyala, si komputer masih discan pake fixblast.exe...

soal secuity, i guess microsoft is truly juancuk

btw, son.. thx ya buat paketnya.. ;)

2003-11-02T18:42:00.000-08:00

too busy typing the codes but stiil wanna have muscles like me?

no problemo!

sexuality check

2003-10-30T17:52:00.000-08:00

am i a boy/male or a girl/female?

have a check...

a good fotolog

2003-10-28T22:28:00.000-08:00

gosh!

how about here in jkt?

confession

2003-10-27T19:27:00.000-08:00

dengan malu hati, hari ini saya mengakui bahwa saya addicted kepada benda itu..

empat tahun sudah saya tidak bisa mengelak untuk tidak menggunakannya..

pagi-pagi saat jam kerja baru mulai, saya pakai itu dahulu

ndak pakai itu, otakku jadi keram

saya kira saya bisa hentikan kebiasaan itu setelah sekian hari ndak pakai, tapi pagi ini pun terjadi lagi...

piye iki?...

wrap up minggu kemarin

2003-10-23T20:19:00.000-07:00

wrap up minggu kemarin

spent the weekend dengan rute jalan bogor-pancoran-cinere-tangerang-bogor-sukabumi-cianjur-bandung-purwakarta-rawasari-bogor... entah berapa kilometer totalnya.. jalan ke sukabumi disapa macet di cicurug, dan puncaknya malem minggu di bandung malah ditemenin hujan yg gak mau pergi...

dari bandung ke purwakarta lewat jalan tol baru.. dari purwakarta ke jkt lewat pintu tol baru pula... i bet saat jalan tol baru itu selesai (ci-pu-larang?), weekend bakal asoy dijalanin bolak balik jkt-bdg.. (terus macet yg biasanya ada di padalarang bakal pindah kemana?)

btw, banyak yg nyasar ke blog nggak jelas ini buat nyari lirik lagu band cokelat.. padahal coklat ndak ada disini.. mungkin adanya disana...

if

2003-10-23T00:30:00.000-07:00

if i can meet God, what question would i ask Him?

a young man learns

2003-10-20T23:08:00.000-07:00

a young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.

it had been some time since jack had seen the old man. college, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. in fact, jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams.

there, in the rush of his busy life, jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. he was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

over the phone, his mother told him, "mr. belser died last night. the funeral is wednesday."

memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

"jack, did you hear me?"

"oh, sorry, mom. yes, i heard you. it's been so long since i thought of him. i'm sorry, but i honestly thought he died years ago," jack said.

"well, he didn't! forget you. every time i saw him he'd ask how you were doing. he'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it," mom told him.

"i loved that old house he lived in," jack said.

"you know, jack, after your father died, mr. belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life," she said.

"he's the one who taught me carpentry," he said.
"i wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. he spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...mom, i'll be there for the funeral," jack said.

as busy as he was, he kept his word. jack caught the next flight to his hometown. mr. belser's funeral was small and uneventful. he had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

the night before he had to return home, jack and his mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time.

standing in the door! way, jack paused for a moment. it was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time. the house was exactly as he remembered. every step held memories. every picture, every piece of furniture....jack stopped suddenly.

"what's wrong, jack?" his mom asked.

"the box is gone," he said.

"what box? " mom asked.

"there was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. i must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. all he'd ever tell me was 'the thing i value most,'" jack said.

it was gone. everything about the house was exactly how jack remembered it, except for the box.he figured someone from the belser family had taken it.

"now i'll never know what was so valuable to him,"
jack said. "i better get some sleep. i have an early flight home, mom."

it had been about two weeks since mr. belser died.returning home from work one day jack discovered a note in his mailbox. "signature required on a package. no one at home. please stop by the main post office within the next three days," the note read.

early the next day jack retrieved the package. the small box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. the handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention.

"mr. harold belser" it read.

jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. there inside was the gold box and an envelope. jack's hands shook as he read the note inside. "upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to jack bennett. it's the thing i valued most in my life."

a small key was taped to the letter. his heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, jack carefully unlocked the box. there inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch. running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover.

inside he found these words engraved: "jack, thanks for your time! harold belser."

"the thing he valued most...was...my time."

jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days.

"why?" janet, his assistant asked.
"i need some time to spend with my son," he said.

"oh, by the way, janet...thanks for your time!"

"life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,"

think about this. you may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. at least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. at least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. the only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. a smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. you mean the world to someone.

7. if not for you, someone may not be living.

8. you are special and unique.

9. when you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust god to do what's best, and wait on his time, probably, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.

10. when you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.

11. when you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.

13. always remember the compliments you received. forget about the rude remarks.

14. always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.

15. if you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

melon

2003-10-15T22:51:00.000-07:00

ada melon tumbuh liar di halaman

dari mana datangnya?

hua.. another monday

2003-10-13T22:29:00.000-07:00

somewhere between the second and the third job i did this morning, i miss my home

as always, monday is never my favourite...

gigantic holodeck

2003-10-09T21:03:00.000-07:00

from new scientist :

perplexing observations beamed back by a nasa spacecraft are fuelling debates about a mystery of biblical proportions - is our universe infinite? scientists have announced tantalising hints that the universe is actually relatively small, with a hall-of-mirrors illusion tricking us into thinking that space stretches on forever.

so maybe its a gigantic holodeck after all... the universe, i mean.. :)

...

all in all, this week i spent total of 8 working hours di klien for doing a supposed to be simple setup but turned out to be headache... the task is to move one active database for client pricing analysis apps dari ms-access ke informix.. empat jam pertama berkutat di setting up detail koneksi di informix client yang ada di web server.. which tetep leads to no connection succesfull di asp (kalo dari dari informix stand-alone client sih bisa... kenapa coba? :P).. diakalin pake table-link ke informix di dalam ms-access dan nggak jalan juga...

3 jam berikutnya dijalani dengan mengerjakan exact same things di web server testing... dan it works... so 1 jam berikutnya dijalanin dengan bengang bengong di depan web server production being clueless of not knowing mesti diapain lagi itu server..

padahal web server testing cuma satu laptop enteng kecil murah meriah etc etc, sementara web server production itu web server segede kulkas dan runningnya diatas hp/ux yang belinya bisa buat ngegaji orang sekampung...

kalo ini lagi dalem mimpi, udah gue sepak itu server kacrut.. hehe...

keputusann akhirnya, oprekan di web server development akan dilanjutkan lagi setelah servernya nanti akan coba di-restart (ah windows, how adorable...)

orbs

2003-10-08T23:27:00.000-07:00

baca-baca blog ita dan killy, penasaran juga sama apa yang namanya orbs..

dan waktu di millenia kemarin, dan tanya-tanya dan coba mengikuti petunjuk ita buat njepret sudut-sudut yang kalo pake kameranya ada bulatan-bulatan putih tipis keliatan..

but alas... dicoba sekian kali dan no orbs atawa buletan putih muncul whatsoever...

kenapa juga?

dari websitenya fuji, ini penjelasannya soal bulatan putih itu..

so my camdig can not capture the same dusts camdignya ita tangkep?

beda karena lensanya.. atau flashnya?..

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